I am 40 years old…wow 40…feels odd writing it…feels like i was 30 just few days back…anyways thats how old I am. Married for 17 years to the sweetest and kindest man i know.
Have two amazing kids who adore me.
Holding a respectable leadership position in one of the corporates.
Have an awesome extended family always ready to help me.
So whats wrong you ask?….. ME!
I have everything the good Lord can give and all i need to do is my part and live my life. Sounds simple right?…naah
I am such an unorganized mess that every aspect of my life just barely works and it was always like that
My home is a mess.
My kids studies are a mess
Their food habits are a mess.
Havent been able to spend 10 mins with my hubby in peace. Can’t remember the last nice thing I did for him.
My work is never smooth…always a last minute scramble to complete things.. leading to late nights and long hours. and i wish i could blame the company…but its Me who is the cause of this chaos.
I am a procrastinator! I put off everything. I have no routine.. absolutely nothing.. there is nothing consistent about anything i do.
This is impacting how i feel. Just feel so overwhelmed all the time.
I have tried reading books…blogs..vlogs and installing apps to get my life in order…but to no avail…. Not one habit or ritual I have been able to sustain for more than a week.
So whats different now… i am hoping that this blog will keep me straight. I ask that my readers hold me accountable for every change I promise to make, to myself and to you.
People around me who see a glimpse of the chaos think its all external… like mom loves to blame my job… my colleagues think that I have a lot to do at home… but the truth is none of them are right….Its all internal.
I need to fix it..
Knowing me for 40 years… i know its not going to be easy. Pls bear with me and push me and encourage me as I get my life in control.
Best of luck to me.